I don’t feel so much like getting into it today. Some things are bad and sad and anything else that happens to rhyme with that. Other things are a little hopeful, brain kicking in, dusting off superhero suit kind of things. I’m just trying to take care of myself now. I wasn’t at all for months and months. I still don’t do it 100%, but I do it some. And a little more each day. I worry about other’s feelings, situations, messes too much. I want to fix everything all the time. I want to get to the happy. I’ll do the right thing in this mess. I’ll find the high road again. I’ll come out a-ok because that’s how I always come out. I’m stubborn like that. Determined like that. Hopeful like that.
My favorite part about getting through a huge mess: when something happens to make it all “worth it.”
What that thing has almost always been: a boy. FUCK!
What I want that thing to be this time: a kitten!
2 comments:
It is so nice when at the end of assorted dramas something super cool happens that does, indeed, make it all worthwhile.
oooh that kitty (and the big bad monsters after it)
High - Lare - EE - US!
i know boys - cute ones especially, they make everything 'ok' - well, if we were still in highschool ;-)
but you know what, i'm doing okay (after my big 'drama' - still gotta blog it) - and things are good. you just choose it.
and taking care of you: 1st priority! always!
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